Today
couldn't sleep for nights
my face looked so pale while i prepared to leave house
choiceless i had to make up to cover my paleness
n ya have to admit
i was feeling super unwell
but knowing that dar had planned for a happy trip
i tried my best to go over to his house

went over everything of me was fake already
a facade rather
facade tat i was the normal me n not unwell
went out
was feeling terrible
went to vivo with dar his mum n the girl
was trying to convince myself that i was just tired thus feeling unwell
walked around
smiles on my face trying to talk to act normal
i felt stupid but another hand felt happy
coz dar didn't realise
HEHE!
at least i can still cover up from him
but felt my energy drained as we walked around
was happy that they decided to sit by a restaurant
but the restaurant we went
some hongkong restaurant
the food had so much msg
even the drink-->iced milo was terrible
ewwww
but was happy that i managed to take a rest
coz i oso dun wan to let them know i was really weak already coz my headache worsened
kept on smiling
but headache was worsening every single second
haiz
hoping really hard that girl girl would not cry n make noise
haiz
but hopes are useless
somehow gotten used to her crying loudly n stuff
managed to block the noises out from my mind n concentrate with my food
somehow didn't even hear dar or his mum talking to me either
or maybe they didn't talk

before leaving vivo
dropped by candy empire i guess the name is right
coz my mind couldn't rmb much
i bought my lemon shortcake
something similar to the one i ate at australia
sadded that they dun have my lavender flavour
hopefully it tastes as good as the one from australia
n girl girl bought lots of sweets
on train
head was throbbing
as though there was someone hitting a drum inside my brain
leaned against the side of the train resting
but managed to have a few conversations with dar
n super glad n felt a sense of accomplishment that dar still didn't realise that i wasn't feeling well
while waiting for bus was rather unhappy for food wastage
but wat to do... it's not my food not my money
so no say...
n off to dar's house
left a few minutes later
headache was ceaasing already
but fever was coming
coz i felt the heat coming up
great
finally i'm sick
den i'll feel better next week...
HEHE!!!
great time for the sick virus!
if not coz of my headache i guess today would be a fun n happy day without any facade...
anyway dar sponsored me for a new pair of heels... was happy
but couldn't really show it... sorry dar for not telling u n not showing any happiness so sorry

+cheating people is tiring+
+but cheating yourself is much more unbearable+