heex...
today i received the me and dar's neoprints...
heex...
he bought mac breakfast over for me...
heex...
i know that he's tired...
after eating...
had great chats...
had a great time with him...
heex...
thanks dar for the early breakfast...

when he came...
he sent me the photos via bluetooth...

i loved this photo the most...
though all of them i like...
heex...
coz this pic looked sooo sweet...

dunno what cartoon character is this...
but looked like my doraemon!!!
heex...
so look very cute of coz...

see...
evidence of dar bullying me...
sobs...
the poor me...

har!!!
i'm not weak...
see i can punch guys know...
that's your punishment for bullying me...
hiah hiah...!

erm...
this pic is sort of obscene...
but...
my face look kind of constipated...
lols...
coz actually he didn't turn over de...
so i kissed his cheek...
but before the pic was taken...
suddenly the turned over...
so...
haiz...
poor me...

the machine that we took need to stand up sit on the floor n look up...
to and fro so many times...
lols...
too tired that this pic came out like this...
oh welll...
never mind...
i get to sit on him...
lols...

ladt night received super sweet msg from dar...
once again was touched...
he asked me if i was happy for yesterday...
i said i was...
he said but he wasn't coz i was with him for merely few hours...
but he'll be contented if he could spend a lifetime with me...
enjoying every single sec every single min...
ewwww...
isn't that sweet...
lols...
had sweet dreams for the night...
heex...
so touched...

back to today...
dar left at around 3.20 to meet his friends...
k so i stayed at home alone once again...
n not long later he msged me he saw andy n jiaen...
lols...
i'm happy for them...
n as usual...
alone and home makes me miss me sis and him...
and most importantly my PAPA...
lols...

n OMG!!!
i haven't even started on my IPP report...
DIE!!

Today marks an important day in my life...
my 1st year anni with dar dar...
heex...

on the mrt train...
dar sent me the photos he mms me the past few days yet i can't view it dunno why...


so sweet...
he made the photos himself...

today we went to eat the curry flavour restaurant that we always wanted to eat...
nice nice food...
but very big serving...
so of coz i can't finish...
i ate cheese fish curry rice...
damn nice la!!!
heex...
den went dhoby ghaut to buy our couple ring...
it's like quite sadded...
coz must wait for three days...
n of coz dar will go collect...
coz i dun have time...
hope it can be ready asap...
heex...
the ring chosen by us is nice...
though i like the ring that have both names engraved and can rotate...
but this one is not bad too...
coz the first one is like wear up quite thick...
lols...
and so...
luckily dar didn't decide to engrave his name as min...
coz it'll end up like me and my sis...
lols...

and off we went for movie...
high school musical 3...
sweet movie...
i like it...
coz the girl is so so so chio...
the guy oso not bad la...
but i like the girl more...
SO CHIO!!!!
if i were a guy i crush her ready wor...
lols...

den off we went for our neoprint session...
we made a pact to take neos only on special occasions...

the machine not bad lehz...
coz can infrared to phone...
but i only managed to get one...
dar's converting the others...

n afterwards i wanted to buy the shoe that i wanted previously...
but dar said it wasn't nice...
so didn't buy...
haiz...
n off we went home...

This week at work felt like my last week...
i'm ready clearing up all reports and manuals that i needed to complete...
hahas...
so when it reaches today, i like nothing much to do le...
n realised that...
omg!!!
next week public holiday...
= double the number to reports to do...
so i'm gonna be sooo busy on tuesday again...
rushing so many reports...
n i haven't prepared small stuff to give my colleagues b4 i leave...
omg...
i'm soooo broke now...
i shopped all my money away...

this week's personal life...
papa was out of country...
that means i've got all the freedom i wanted...
monday...
was very depressed after work...
dar came to fetch me...
but i didn't tell him anything that happened...
just acted as though i was fine...
n he gave me surprises...
suddenly ignored me...
den suddenly hugged me...
n before i knew it...
there was a necklace on my neck...
sooo sweet...
was really surprised...


the necklace...
i like it so much...
coz it's from dar...
heex...
jie was saying the diamond thingy looks weird...
coz like sticking out from nowhere...
but i guess it has its meaning...
i get it...
do you??

heex...
tuesday...
met up with beloved kel and aishah!!!
we met up at orchard...
n as usual kel was uber late...
but can't be helped...
its working days!!
so me and aishah shopped around...
we bought the same bangles...
coz its too nice le...
and while shoppnig kel came...
was chatting so much...
decided to eat sakura for dinner....
but it was too packed...
so ended up eating shilin's mee sua...
n so...
all the oysters came to me...
lols...
n all the chicken went to kel...
aishah ate the plain mee sua...
n then we went to eat the gelare's waffles...
ewww so nice...
plus it was half price...
thus die die must eat...
aishah didn't like gelare...
so she went to buy her cardigans first...
n after eating...
i bought a shoe...
super soft n nice lo...
never regret...
plus it's only $20 wat more to expect.?
and after shopping awhile more...
i found another shoe that i liked....
k i shall buy it the next time i see it...
muah hahahaha...
kel managed to stop me that day...
heex...
thanks!!
but i'll still buy it...
hahas...
aishah wanted to buy shoe de...
but very sad...
the colour she wanted no more her size le...
so ke lian...
n off we went to that cd shop...
the songs there are nice...
the one from daniel powter...
anybody has?? faster send me!!
hahas...
n off me and kel went to take bus home while aishah kept on listening to the music there...
damn sleepy on the bus...
me and kel managed to keep awake chatting...
heex...

wednesday meet jie to eat at compass...
but that day i went for work...
n wasn't feeling well..
so i left after finishing my daily reports...
n went to see doctor...
he said was becoz of my stress blah blah blah...
n gave me vitamins...
omg...
wasted my money...
den went home ate the vitamins...
n i felt better...
k n i realised it's coz my tummy wants to eat...
hahas...
n so dar brought me to eat after his school...
he forbid me from eating fried stuff...
sadded...
i'm being abused...
then he just bought mushroom ramen for me...
k la...
not that bad...
coz it's bought by him...
heex...
den had a great time with him around...
felt much better afterwards...
met jie and ate PIZZA HUT!!!
yumyum...
heex...
den i shopped again!!!
omg...

thursday...
met up with dearest MELANIE LAO SHI!!!
heex...
she's getting married soon...
felt soo happy for her...
n can't imagine i known her for 11years already...
lols...
her love story damn like taiwanese drama series...
haha...
but glad that she's found her one and only true love...
her story tells guys one thing...
never out of bet with friends go propose to a friend...
in future you'll be marrying her...
hahas...
she drove us home later...

friday after work...
sooo tired...
slept so soundly on the bus...
lols...
n before i knew it...
i reached home le...
heex...
came home n papa wasn't home yet...
no news since he left singapore...
so scared..
but luckily he came back not TAT late...
hahas...
was quite relieved when i heard him calling out for my name...
heex...
"meimei ah" n i realised...
i've missed papa sooo much for these few days...

last sunday...
i saw my beloved xian xian...
ewww...
she's just too cute that i love taking her photos...
n now i have more photos of her than myself...
hahas...

This week is as usual hectic...
Thanks dar dar for coming down to fetch me...
n i learnt new things this week...
woots~~...
very happy...
coz now know most of the things i should do already...
n now learning new things really makes me happy...
other than tiredness i'm happy with my job and growing to love it...
heex...
and my great colleague...
love them loads for tolerating my blurness...
heex...

n i made i super funny mistake this week...
fine shan't elaborate abt it...
those who know keep it to yourself...
those who dunno...
dun try to find out coz i'm embarrassed enough...
lols...

tuesday
n i went home n saw xian xian standing at the doorstep waiting for me...
omg!!!
so cute!!!!
lols...

i love her soo much...
n she knows when i wan to kiss her n will face me...
ewww...
so cute...


see her happy face...
she loves me crying her and hugging her!!
lols...

n after a while...
i found out she was having her normal mens...
ewww...
so poor thing..
no wonder so lethargic...
but she wear panties sooo cute!!!
lols...
somemore red colour de...
cannot gamble with her if not sure lose...
lols...
sooo poor thing...



thursday...
woon yah came back to visit us...
oooh...
i miss her!!!
n we went to a super traditional korean restaurant...
nice food...
nice ambience...
n it's really the first time going to such a traditional restaurant...
price was quite reasonable...
heex...
n went back to work...
gossiped with her some stuff...
n abt that les girl...
omg!!!
lols...
she hear le oso very angry...
haiz...
den back to work...

n me...
off to work!

n friday dar dar came to pick me up from work...
was sort of surprised...
coz i tot he was still at sch...
but from his messages i guessed it already la...
lols...

i had to force him to pose for a photo...
look at his weird funny face...
lols...

saturday
dar dar accompanied me down to my facial company's opening of new outlet...
at chinatown...
i treated him to swensen's and meet jie...
once reached the company...
was so sad coz dar was leaving...
haiz...
at the outlet...
was coaxed to purchase new package...
omg!!
k there goes my pay...
haiz...
but never mind la...
coz i took up those packages i wanted...
heex...
afterwards went to popo's house to wait for da yi and xiao yi for dinner...
saw popo and played with her n chatted with her...


popo is cute...
i told her to take pic...
den she turned and look at the camera...
n smiled...
omg...
so cute...
though we have language barriers n she can't hear anything we say already...
but hand signals are still understandable...
at least i can still ommunicate with her...
now i really regret...
regretted tat i didn't spend more time with popo in the past...
i even didn't bother abt her at all...
now really want to spend more time with her...
make her happy...
at least this time...
she didn't mistook me for another person..
she can call me...
was sort of touched that she didn't forget me this time round...
n happy that i can be there listening to her calling me...
after her food...
she was aching...
her tummy...
guess it's coz of the muscles...
so i rubbed her tummy...
trying to make her feel more comfortable...
n she really did n stopped groaning in pain...
was happy abt tat...
n she slept so soundly...
suddenly i felt like crying at that scene...
i was sorry...
sorry for lacking of concern for her...
now i truely love her...
in the sense...
i love her more...
much much more than before...
left her house at 9 after the sumptous dinner...
chilli crabs, garlic prawns...
yumyum...
n of coz fried chicken wings!!!
lols...
long long time since i ate those...

lastly...
thanks dar for the pics that you sent me...
it's been long since you sent touching msgs to me...


can feel tat you truely love me...
even spent time, sacrificing your sleep to create these photos...
thanks...
i can feel that dar dar is cherishing me more n more each day...
now the bad times are gone...
n we are so happy together...
cherishing every single minute that we have...

and to that extra person leaving that tag
thanks for your 'care n concrern' for me
it's only a quarrel..
there's no need to ask people to go commit suicide rite??
quarreling is so normal between couples isn't it?
wat you said was too harsh...
harsh to dar and harsh to me...
if there's no quarrel between us...
that will mean we dun even bother abt the relationship...
when two people gets together there'll definitely be quarrels..
because we're two different people...
i love him for who he is...
if we can only go through happy times and not bad ones...
i think there's not need for us being together...
it's between two of us...
you dunno the details so there's no point for you leaving that comment...
even if you ARE a friend...
you dunno the details you dunno anything...
so you dun have the right to tell me dar to go commit suicide isn't it??
dar wanted to go file a police report for imflammation the suicide matter...
i stopped him...
coz there's no point wasting my time on such a person...
be it out of true concern...
or the cyber bully watsoever...
i dun even bother of your nonsense...
coz even my friends or family can't say this...
that is only hurting statements that shouldn't be said...
coz it's so bad...
like a curse...
so evil...

for my friends out there....
you all can comment abt my relationship...
but not like this...
you all are my friends i respect wat you all say...
n i will think carefully of your words...
coz i know wat you all say is meant for MY OWN GOOD...
but it better be purely out of CONCERN...
n i trust my friends are not those that left that comment...

This week is as usual--HECTIC!!!
it's getting more and more hectic coz it's gonna be the end of ipp...
thus my company will wan me to make all manuals and handover listing stuff...
i'm so terribly busy till i dun even have time to go toilet...
haiz...
n i so busy till i dun even know how i got all my bruises all over my body...
even on my butt and tummy...
omg!!!
haiz...
somehow rmb me kana hit...
but i can't rmb where and when...
too busy...
i have stm now...
so peeps...
dun blame me for forgetting any stuff...
coz other than work...
i dun seem to rmb anything...

yeah...
at office was as usual...
other than work...
it's quite enjoyable...
the two guy interns did not bother me anymore...
which that's a good thing...
i can ignore them n concentrate on my work...
this week was made to do html...
though do not understand well...
but managed to get the thing my supervisor wants...
actually is me n shirley decide to make a webbie to put new report onto intranet...
then shirley decided to let peiyun do it n figure out...
den when shirley wasn't around n peiyun came back from her mc...
peiyun gave me the job...
spent two hours there trying to decipher the codings...
was having headaches when i saw all the codes...
omg!!!
but i managed to get it...!!
muah haha...
at least i'm not that blur afterall...
actually starting can't get the webbie de...
kept having errors...
den peiyun came to help...
n i managed to realise the mistake...
heex...
happy...
got the sense of accomplishment...

and this week had 2 birthday celebrations at work...
n i'e got many invitations to birthdays this month..
but decided not to go for any...
coz i'm tired...
plus not that close...
other than jie...
k...
we had celebrations for our "favourite" ex-boss ngang lee...
that's her cake below...

Today
reached work late...
but nobody knew...
coz as usual was the earliest there...
once i reached office...
do reports until i wan siao lo...
really can die sia...
do and do until i even no time go toilet n forget time for lunch...
den peiyun reminded me of lunch time...
hehe...
if no i sure totally forget de...
ate a super duper light lunch...
reason will be below...
n dun guess...
not dieting la...
i can't make it de...
heex...
went to have fish soup again...
without rice this time...
but miraculously i was full...
think coz of the stress thus no appetite bah...
den walked around the shops awhile...
saw alot of clothes i want to buy...
omg...
den back to office...
n do reports....
until end of work le...
jie called to remind me that it's end of work...
den i rushed to pack up...
didn't really finish my work...
hopefully i can rush everything by monday...
but i think it's impossible...
coz it's monday!!!
tons of reports to do...
haiz...
den rushed to orchard to meet jie and da yi and xiao yi...
den off to holiday inn for my buffet dinner!!!
is to celebrate jie's birthday la...
heex...
den ate alot...
can see some of the food below...

of coz ended up i aimed all the desserts...
hehe...
this was xiao yi's plate of dessert...

the cup of fruits mousse...
i think the cup for it is cute...
coz its round n doesn't really stand well...
somehow like a humpty dumpty...
heex...

ooh... this is the i dunno which country's meat...
like that cut down de lo...
but it's nice...
dunno wat meat is it...
hopefully its just chicken if not i will feel guilty...

the whole row of food...
n it's only one row...
still got 3-4 more rows similar to this...
imagine the food temptation!!

heex... n of coz my plate of dessert!!
muah hahahaha...
desserts are damn tempting to me...
thus the big plate...
hiah hiah...!!!

mine and jie's cold dessert...

da yi's mee goreng...

jie's mee goreng without egg...
but it still doesn't appeal to me...
anyway... according to them...
it's not nice...
luckily i never take...
heex...

me dessert again...

the super rich and nice chocolate cake...
but one slice is enough...
if not very sweet...

in the restaurant of coz photos of my lao piggy n me the small piggy!!


had a great dinner...
finally after o long...
have a stressless dinner...
heex...

n at the dessert table got this bowl of durian cream...
people were snatching for them...
of coz i ran away...
coz it's too smelly...
n my aunts and jie still brought it to the table...
almost fainted...
n the restaurant still have this damn tall chocolate fondue!!!
as tall as me know...
omg...
can't resist the temptation...
but when i go over...
no more marshmallows...!!!!!
SOBS!!!!!
n luckily found one pathetic one that camouflaged with the bowl...
snatched it n dipped it into the rich chocolate...
n omg!!!!!
damn nice!!!
heex...
i wan go there again for my desserts..!!!
but nonetheless...
i was sooo terribly full...
thanks to the desserts...
but was satisfied!!
hiah hiah...
reached home at 10 plus...
tired tired...
i still got work to do... sobs...
need to read n analyze reports...
omg...
at this rate...
how am i gonna finish my ipp report??
haiz...

+now i feel so blessed+
+other than the stressful work+
+i'm satisfied with my life+
+just wan i less stressful job+
+but i love my job+

heex...
i'm back after sooo many days of not blogging...
shall talk abt the past few days...

monday...
met grace, basil and their friend at mrt station to pick up my clothes from grace...
heex...
after a long wait my clothes are here...
to be exact only one piece la....
but better than nothing...
heex...
had a great chat with them...
cheer up alot during monday...

tuesday...
again another day of work...
n it's the end of the month n gonna have a public holiday...
thus got lots of work to do...
dar came to fetch me after work...
but on the journey...
didn't talk much...
think coz we're both tired...

wednesday
a public holiday...
happy and at the same time sad.
happy coz i get to rest...
sad coz public holiday i have to do alot of reports the next day...
sadded...
watched fated to love you the whole day...
was very depressed...

thursday-today...
woke up not feeling very well...
somehow very stuffy at the chest...
but went to work...
till noon time...
felt so stuffy till i can't really breathe...
kept wanting to vomit...
think the heart problem is gonna react...
can i pull it longer??
not sure...
went for lunch...
was having giddy spells...
yet kept it to myself...
den after lunch...
rushed reports as usual...
was getting more n more depressed...
but didn't think that much...
coz i'm reallyn ot feeling well...
left the office at 6.40pm...
well working ot for me daily is a norm already...
den at the bus stop...
chest was hurting sooo much...
was feeling so terrible...
on the bus journey...
almost knocked out...
yet...
received a depressing n a happy msg...
however...
somehow can't feel any emotions...
coz my heart hurts so much...
got this suddenly contracting feeling...
k...
i think my heart prob worsen...
i'm not taking care of myself...
hurts so much...
once i got down the bus...
i vomited...
k...
no more image le...
coz everybody at the bus stop saw it...
throw face...
but can't be bothered that much...
slowly made my way home...
the sight of xian xian...
i felt better...
however still hurting much...
my body is getting weaker already...
haiz...
+didn't think that it could be so hurting+