haiz... finally can come online... going to see doctor in a few days time for some private stuff.... i'm scared... tat day went to celebrate x'mas with ser hui tanny charis and jessie... they all put make up except tanny... make until i so odd... so wierd de na.... was funny at marche... jessie's drink came out like soya sauce... we laughed so loud that people sitting around was watching us... ate a little bit.... but spent quite a lot... feel so bad not buying x'mas gifts... haiz.... took two neos... one with all of them and other with ser hui... fun... but leg hurts like hell... sat at mrt station waiting for arathi and ser hui had to find jobs for jessie.... found a quite good one... den went home... but dun feel like getting down the mrt... so went compass... talked to jessie about some idiot irritating sucking person!!!!... haiz... sobs.... scared for check up... scared is something tat is very suay... haiz... hope i'm fine la... that night scared until cry... woke up with swollen eyes... yeeks... yep... i must jia you... waiting for time to pass quickly... miss peeps...

haiz... finally ao until now le... haiz... everyday stay at home is really boring... going malaysia without papa tml... he dunno.... haha... going with jie to shop den coming back... only in the day... yeps... going with her friends... yay... can go out ofhouse le... cooped at home for two weeks le... sooo happy... everyday stay at home play comp oso very boring de.... haiz... but oso quite free... now... haiz... dunno watta say abt life now... at least other people can go out walk a while... i can't even go out and exercise can!!!!!>.... argh... haiz... now saving money... coz wanna buy new mp3... jie bought hers at 199.... somemore can play video as well... so jealous... waiting for chinese new year den can buy le... and oso my new handphone... i want that one is five hundred odd bucks la... so must save... now saved 200 le... must jia you!!! yeps...

haiz... i'm sort of grounded... can't go out to work... haiz... last night bored to tears... lao pa dun allow me to work!!!!.... argh.... now i see the tv den bored... see computer den irritated... see books den headache.... wad else can i do at home!!!!.... lao pa stop me to work that time said a lot of thing... most of the things like say i cannot go out like that... dun even dare ask lao pa to let me go out... and did not even dare to ask again can let me to work not... jie two years ago den beg lao pa to let her go work le... beg for two years also cannot... den until mi more cannot la... haiz... den my mama side that relatives keep asking mi to go out with them... but everytime go out with them den feel very guilty towards lao pa... coz feel like betraying him like that... haiz... family problems sooo hard to solve... lao pa and mama side relatives just can't get along... haiz... den lao pa and his brother... second one oso until now still dun tok to each other... mi and jie being stuck in the middle... haiz... damn the bored... but dun dare to call friends to chat... lao pa dun like mi to tok on phone... dun like mi to do harsh housework... dun like mi to go out... dun like mi to watch tv... dun like mi to use computer... wat else can i do men!!!... i need help and freedom... now can't even go out to buy food... when lao pa go out to work he oso cook... cannot dun eat... or when he coming home after work he buy food for mi... i'm damn bored... bored to tears lorz... heeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllllpppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!