few days of resting
i feel so much better n healthier
these few days spent my time online watching the past singapore dramas
was rather nice
past dramas are much nicer than present dramas
while waiting for drama to load was reading through blogs
n a nice friend warned me abt somebody's blog
out of curiousity
i went to read
only to have disappointment
so after everything that i have endured
only changed for that word
never once did a friend said i was
n now
to those who know the story
so be it
now other than disappointment i can't feel others
i should have listen to the thousands of advices my frens n loved ones gave
i regret that i didn't n keep on holding on to the smallest hope that this friendship can be salvaged
i tried
n yes i did make effort to try to mend the broken pieces
i tried to suppress wateva things that the person has done to me
all the hurt
n showed friendliness
and i exchanged for such a pathetic word
hurt n disappointment i guess
sorry my frens n loved ones coz i didn't heed ur advices n only to get myself brutally hurt
i'm really sorry for not listening

other than that matter
i felt that i was so much loved by those around me
just a comment for a shoe
n dar offered to buy it for me
though it's a small little thought from u
i'm satisfied enough

now rather worried for my papa n my jie
jie's having exams n she felt she couldn't make it
jie even told me to reconsider going uol
but well
since i've made the decision i will try my best
as for papa i hope that everything will be over soon
there's the sun behind the clouds rite?
when the clouds are over
the bright lovely sun comes out.
hope that the sun will come out sooner!