currently rushing for projects...
last weekend was out with dar on sat...
was having this super bad mood of his attitude for the past 1week...
dunno why like that though...
think really misunderstanding ba...
cried in front of him in the cinema before the show...
den managed to cool down to concntrate to the movie...
watched get smart...
nice and funny movie...
but during movie...
realised something is wrong with dar...
and realised he was crying...
diaoz...
think i hurt him deeply from the words i said...
sorry dar...
but i only wanted to tell u how i felt...
den went home...
my beloved xian xian lao gong was already at home waiting for me...
heex...
feel so much warmth...
for my whole life...
i hated going home...
i hated the feeling of nowhere to go but to go home...
but whenever xian is at home waiting for me...
i feel the urge to rush home asap...
so...
xian is my motivation to go home...
the root of my happiness...
can't imagine one day if she leaves me...
sadded...

reached home...
went to buy dinner while bringing xian for a walk...
jie invited some friends home...
to teach them a maths...
luckily last minute i've got work to do...
if not i'll be the last minute free tutor of the day...
phew...
but one of her friends still bring friends along...
i dun like them...
bad girls...
and somemore call us buy food for them all dun wan to eat...
dun even know got pay a not...
wth...
if give this kind of attitude den dun go others' house la...
think u all queens mehx...
take everything for granted...
we're not your maids okay!!

sunday stayed at home to do homework plus projects...
so tired and sick of projects...
and xian wasn't there to accompany me through all this...
sadded...

monday...
meet my group mates at 9am though our lesson is at 12...
did project...
went to have lunch together...
this time meeting in school for projects wasn't that terrible as the past...
coz my group mates were entertaining...
especially mr.poon and andy+jiaen...
everything they say ah...
damn funny de...
lols...
den went for my crm ica...
i think i screwed it up...
yes i did...
coz i was still half sleeping half awake condition while taking it...
so can't handle the going crazy teacher...
but she's yelling at the top of her voice i guess...
so wat i did was practically holding the phone far away from my ears...
and afterall...
i put the phone down but talked into the voice thingy...
and i can still hear her ranting away...
n guess wat...
she say my voice over gentle...
fainted...
where got gentle lo...
gross...
den went for gso lecture...
the new lecturer was...
TERRIBLE...
almost sleep during her lesson...
and she was practically reading out everything from her book...
so not much notes to write...
which makes me so sleepy...
den went to take photos for sample of entre product...
my group maked me the model...
sian diaoz...
dun like la...
but i little sacrifice for the project is needed...
think the photos came out super ugly...
coz i have a lousy body shape...
changed at the staircase though...
felt so shy changing at so open area...
afterwards home sweet home...

tuesday...
school at 10am...
forced myself out of bed...
was so tired and feel like calling guojie to help me scan my card...
but...
faa lecture cannot miss!!!
so forced myself to wake up and make my way slowly to school...
still 70% sleeping, 10% awake, 20% in my dreamland...
den still got presentation...
skipped crm lecture to prepare for presentation later...
afterall at presentation...
i was like a train rushing through everything i need to say...
fainted...
talked until my mouth so dry...
after presentation...
den i realised that my pants the zip spoil...
but luckily my shirt long enough to cover...
lols...
heng ar...
den went to have some food with dar...
and back home...
once i reached home papa went out...
leaving me at home all alone...
was so afraid for nightfall...
that i slept all the way till jie comes home to on the lights...
finally i feel secure...
i'm such a insecure person...
lack security...
haiz...
slept early that night for the early lessons next day...

today...
didn't wan to come school one...
but...
haiz no choice ar...
new teacher for gso lesson...
waited for bus soo long...
72 is so full...
so took 70 that came...
got traffic jam...
haiz...
reached school late...
but not as late that i didn't hear teacher talking...
though it was useless...
just so icebreaker...
lols...
den lessons and breakfast...
and lessons again...
faa lesson made me wan to sleep even much much more...
ended just on time...
tot will overrun...
haiz...
den do project time...
didn't have lunch...
so halfway ran down to cheers for some biscuits...
met dar there...
and back to project...
when jie called saying my xian lao gong is waiting for me at home...
now got motivation to go home early again!!!
heex...