after two weeks finally can blog liaoz...
got so many things to write la...

last week:
1st week of work...
was so busy...
and totally can't cope...
once i reached home...
really damn exhausted...
didn't even have time for family and friends...
but had dinner with augu...
haiya...
forgot to thanks him for the lasagne treat...
was damn nice...
hahas...
chatted alot as well...

the 1st week of work was like bonding the ten of us together...
and we were trying very hard to preservere on...
wuah can die de lo...

this week:
was work and work again...
ten of us began to get crazy...
this week stephanie was over high...
laughing non-stop...
and dunno why she laughing sia...
and she ar...
once she laugh make me and jonathan laugh as well...
was like laughing on the phone lo...
but this week dominique was sick...
and the day she took mc...
ms noh called me....
why it's me again??
and i kana rep for the ten of us at uob...
so i'm supposed to pass all news to ten of them??
faintz...
i'm a super blur queen lo...
later i forget how??
i even blur until work that time can forget something very impt...
den later remember then very embarrassing lo...
make until they all keep laughing at me...
sobs...
yesterday was marathon day...
why??
coz they all go lunch only me and steph picking up calls...
and we were like rushing calls la...
1min can pick up two calls...
talking like choo choo train...
pia like crazy...
so next time i end work at uob can speak damn super duper fast liaoz...
and yesterday damn funny...
somebody from nyp call in to our hotline...
to check funds...
and all of us saw the account...
wuah...

and damn idiot lo...
end of the day pick up terrible call...
need to follow up this terrible call...
can die lo...
den i still blur blur call her to call back today...
hahas...
i not working la...
so cannot help her...
never mind...
shall follow up on monday...
see i'm responsible...

wednesday had dinner with shuwen...
chatted alot...
family background quite similar...
but at the same time very different...
sympathize her...
and understand her feelings...
but i'm quite lucky...
my sibling still care about me...
and we really chatted...
never mind...
she can talk to me!!
wuah haha...
yep...
dinner at delifrance...
again...
hahas...
the delicious lasagne...
hahas....
and both of us same day kana mens...
so having cramps and eating and chatting...
she la...
pass me the mens hormones!!
sobs...

thursday...
was having terrible cramps...
den i totally forget that i meeting him at school..
until he msg me...
okiez lo...
so took bus back to school with jonathan...
he was like talking rubbish with me on the bus...
lots of rubbish...
and he wan me to punch him on the bus when i having cramps and sitting down...
diaoz...
wat the...
den got down the bus...
saw his fren...
was feeling so wierd...
how come looking at me in such a wierd manner..??
den walked in to school...
from 159bus stop...
wuah the walkway like really damn long...
maybe due to carsick...
was feeling like vomitting...
can faint...
plus cramp...
toally no energy..
luckily at night liao...
not much people...
but when i step into school...
school to me like total stranger...
den went up to the 5th floor...
and once lift door opened i forgot to turn right or left...
so just stand there never move lo...
den realized how cum the staircase there got so many heads peeping ar?
den i was like hmmm...
maybe i think too much...
den stand there never move lo...
den you came out...
bring me go see the thing...
that point really touched...
but really damn uncomfortable until got no reaction...
den you took out the 'flowers'...
that point i was like...
faintz...
i guessed it!!
den you ask that question ar...
but the prob is i got the answer...
just dunno how to say out...
can't bring up the courage to say lo...
so i choose to dun say...
see how you react lo...
hahas...
den was like throughout the whole journey you damn sad lo...
den i oso feel so sad...
know you trying to cover...
but depressed the feeling...
i still can feel it lo...
make until i oso can't seem to smile out...
and make me so embarassed holding that 'flowers' la...
can faintz...
den wanted you to go home faster...
and you still accompany me back home...
want you to go home coz very obvious you super tired...
wan you to go rest...
den at the point i msg you my answer...
i was only behind you la...

den i try to smuggle into house with that big thingy...
luckily nobody saw it...
put it on my study table...
so damn tired when i reached home...
den friday totally forgot about thursday...
until i saw the big thingy...
haiz...
den went to work...
tried to wake u up the whole journey la...
but you are...
sleep until like pig lo...
no worse than pig...
can't wake u up with so many calls...
reached work liao den managed to wake u up...
but at the moment i spoke...
jonathan go tell everybody...
den damn mahlu la...
everybody talking cheering away...
wat the...
caused my whole friday to be so embarrassed...

but last night really didn't mean to say that...
i really need time to get used to it...
not because of the guy in the past...
it's like...
dunno when you managed to kick him away...
dunno when i start to wan to try to understand you...
oso dunno when...
for so many things...
but i really still need time to get used to it la...
i'm sorry...
but at this moment...
i'm really tired out...
trying to get used to it...
and i'm sorry that i can't accompany you...
coz i'm really busy at the moment...

+i'm like in a forest full of mist+
+trying to find my way out+
+maybe you are prepared+
+but i'm still preparing myself+
+i dun even have confidence in myself+
+how can i expect you to have confidence in me+