haiz...
yesterday learnt alot of lessons...
mux thank yunting for teaching me so many stuff...
learnt tt as a human he/she mux be selfish...
even though people say you selfish oso cannot care...
coz they're not you...
so they won't know how you feel...

yap...
i'm feeling very helpless and lost right now...
i don't know wat to do...
now i'm making the first step...
if i don't...
the prob will still be there...
i'm so lack of courage...
it's the first time i felt so la..
den is like everytime think of the matter...
i feel so lack of energy...
as though dun even have the energy to breathe...
i mux pick up my courage...
since i've got the courage to even go against my relatives...
why don't i have the courage to face my own matters...?
i can do it...

i believe that if i had put in more effort...
many things might not have turned to this way...
but now effort is not enuff...
courage and even determination is needed...
i don't know if i have the dtermination and courage to face it...
but i must...!