my feelings now...

haiz...
today monday le..
got lots of things that happen...
got to know alot of stuff from serhui tt day...
was so damn upset...
since to you all i'm just an irritating maybe not even human in you all eyes...
then just be it...
and i rather you all dun ever appear again in front of me...
and if our friendship really meant nothing to you all...
den so be it...
it doesn't mean i do not have frens...
just that since you didn't not want the frienship den just forget it...
i can cherish more other things...
though sad but i do not have other choices...
so i can only let things go past...
letting off may be a better choice...

i never expected things will turn out like this...
but ready expected ending of our frenship even at sec3...
so giving up time...
maybe this post will let me go through worst consequences...
but i rather face it...
facing it is better than avoiding...

that day went back PL with senior for cca fair...
damn beautiful la...
saw yunlu...
hear her call my name again...
felt so nice to see her...
after cca fair...
went tm to visit serhui...
coz jie missed her loads...
den waited for her for her break...
was shopping all by myself for an hour...
coz jie went to siti harvest(spelling dunno correct??)...
den ate at han's...
chatted alot...
it was then that i got to know the stuff mentioned up there...
giving up is the only choice for me...

yesterday practised excel...
ica tml...
hope will do well...
practised from 10am to 8pm...
first time so pia for IT...
only like that can temporary let me stop thinking abt some stuff...
but i only managed to tahan until 1am...
den cried on jie's shoulder...
jie must keep tt shirt wor...
got my precious tears...
read people's post...
sad...
but guess...
i do not even mean at all to them anymore...
but at least i still got my jie mei hua to be there to support me!!!
i LOVE YOU ZHEN AND MAMA!!!
thanks for being there to listen to my sorrows...
thanks for being there to support me...
thanks for being there when i cried...
thanks...
can never express my gratitude to you two...
words can't seem to prove anything...
thanks looooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddddddddssssssssssssss!!!