haiz... i'm sort of grounded... can't go out to work... haiz... last night bored to tears... lao pa dun allow me to work!!!!.... argh.... now i see the tv den bored... see computer den irritated... see books den headache.... wad else can i do at home!!!!.... lao pa stop me to work that time said a lot of thing... most of the things like say i cannot go out like that... dun even dare ask lao pa to let me go out... and did not even dare to ask again can let me to work not... jie two years ago den beg lao pa to let her go work le... beg for two years also cannot... den until mi more cannot la... haiz... den my mama side that relatives keep asking mi to go out with them... but everytime go out with them den feel very guilty towards lao pa... coz feel like betraying him like that... haiz... family problems sooo hard to solve... lao pa and mama side relatives just can't get along... haiz... den lao pa and his brother... second one oso until now still dun tok to each other... mi and jie being stuck in the middle... haiz... damn the bored... but dun dare to call friends to chat... lao pa dun like mi to tok on phone... dun like mi to do harsh housework... dun like mi to go out... dun like mi to watch tv... dun like mi to use computer... wat else can i do men!!!... i need help and freedom... now can't even go out to buy food... when lao pa go out to work he oso cook... cannot dun eat... or when he coming home after work he buy food for mi... i'm damn bored... bored to tears lorz... heeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllllpppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!