Today
met up with baobei serhui!
hehe
met at ps...
walked around
went bookstore to read books n stuff...
n went for our ri ben chun jap food buffet
yummy!!
ate quite alot la
lols!!
hehe...
n chatted alot
she told me more abt her fren
tat point
i almost cried
n i too saw the tears in her eyes
i knew the pain of losing fren
till the point u can't see the person again
really hurts
somemore the part she said
she was looking through her msn list to see who's online
she saw her fre's msn
n she knew he would never appear as online again
that heartache i felt
though it wasn't my fren
but...
felt so sad for him...
but well...
he's gone another place better
where he wouldn't need to suffer in pain any longer...
it's somehow good for him...

chatted alot alot
told her many problems i faced...
well...
n chatted much of the past school life
our secondary school life
was fun
laughed till tummyache
i miss those times...
study hard n play hard
we studied well with good grades
n played hard with lots of memories that we'll still laugh upon
there's no regret in sec sch i guess?

and of coz we had our cam whoring
starts from me!

our food
of coz it's only a small tiny weeny portion!

in the toilet
our camwhoring starts...
but pic are blur
coz hand will shiver lehz!
whoo~~ i'm kissing baobei on her head??

today
woke up at 12.30pm
didn't sleep enough coz last night slept at 5.30am...
lols
rather sleeping very early in the morning
woke up n cleared all my poly books
putting them neatly in boxes
differentiating them year 1, year2 and year 3 books.
now finally my study room is much much neater!
muah hhahahahaha!!!

den jie jie cooked black pepper chicken patty spagetti for me!!
muah hahaha...
yumyum lo!!
finished the dish damn fast
coz was too nice le

finally after 2 weeks of preseverance
my exams are over!
hehe!
exams ended with pfpli
which was a rather...
some questions were tricky
n i got tricked
anyways can pass can le...
n these 5 papers of exam
there's people playing cheat
when teacher walks away they started getting answers from each other.
EVERY single paper i was sitting near or next to this same guy
play cheat 5 times in a row
not embarrasssed of yourself mehz?!
somemore today do pfp
sit beside him
he tried to look over at my answer script during exams
it's like pls lo
never sudy go get MC or wat den do the exam another day la...
do until like this!
was rather obvious
guess everybody around tat corner knows about it
n teachers were so damned blind!

anyways
this year
felt papa's concern for me for my exams
coz this year i really put in effort to study
i mean sleeping very late like 2am and waking up at 4.30am to study
like finally feels that he concerns abt me more than my studies
keep saying just study wat u can
can pass can le
wan to stop studying den stop
like finally i dun need to put extra stress on myself for grades
finally i can study for my own sake
n get MY own grades without the need of comparison with jie jie
YESH!

for afternoon papers i would wakie at 10am to study
n for afternoon papers jie would accompany me to school for studies
on friday while we were walking to school from AMK
passed by this whole bunch of the 'bull's tail grass'
i liked this particular type of grass
coz they can grow under any type of conditions
n even growing strong n steady
singapore seldom has this kind of grass as they normally grows at places where it was left alone, untouched...
those type of abandoned land we'll find this grass
but i saw it
n is alot alot
obviously the company grew it there

closer look...
hehe...
so nice looking!


for the morning papers
i woke up n went to AMK macs to study at 6.
n kaka would join me when it's abt 7 n we'll head for school together.
at the same time...
we'll be asking each other questions to test our understanding
so must really thank her
coz through the process of questioning n answering
i really managed to learn alot more than individual studying

after my papers
i would be so busy
like tuesday rush to TPY
n today after the last paper
i have to be at a top condition
i mean my brain
coz i had to rush for interview
while my frens went home to hibernate
sianz!
but my hibernating period will the the whole day of thursday
hehe!
reached tampines early
so went walking around to shop
like alone
n sort of liked the quietness
rather
my heart was rather quiet
went for interview
n the guy that interviewed me was SUPER handsome
i ended up staring at him to answer questions
hehe
afterwards headed home for a rest n left house at 5plus to meet dar at his workplace
after dinner n chatting
on the way home met my sec sch junior
had some chat abt our recent going-ons while dar just listened to us
lols!
DAR DAR IS A EAVESDROPPER!
lols
dar sent me home thereafter
n xian xia was at my house
terribly missed her
coz i didn't get to see her for a month already... :(
so ended up camwhoring of her...
hehe



i love my xian xian
give her alot of mmuackie!

Finally one more left n no more exams already!!
YES!!
tired tired...
leaving PFPLI
felt much much stress
haiz

hrm was down...
relatively do-able...
but still mistakes here n there
IFT
MANY MANY mistakes
but can pass la...
just hoping for a pass
coz this sem really not enough time for studies
once ift is over i came home for a nap
couldn't take it anymore

these few days have been constantly dreaming about cats
the same place around the same time type of dream
doing the same thing
n got theese two black and white cats following me like dunno wat
so i got so curious
so come online see wat does the dream means...
n i got to this:

To see a cat in your dream, symbolizes an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power. It also represents misfortune and bad luck. The cat could indicate that someone is being deceitful or treacherous toward you. The dream may be a metaphor for "cattiness" or someone who is "catty" and malicious.

To see a black cat in your dream, indicates that you are experiencing some fear in using your psychic abilities and believing in your intuition. You may erroneously associate the black cat with evil, destruction, and bad luck. If you see a white cat, then it denotes difficult times.

hmmm...
rather true
i'm experiencing lots of fear right now
also intuition based
school, home
dunno why there's this fear of something inside me...
n prob is i dun even know wat kind of fear is it n wat's the source...
haiz!

2 down 3 more to go...
exams are so stressful...
i need motivation
need more time
haiz

hf was a total killer
i can do
but unsure of good grades
it WAS tough
n hardly i would admit to papa that a particular exam was tough
unless it really was enough to kill me
haiz
but can pass la
gave up on the paper halfway
was just writing wateva i can think of
n luckily a 10 mark question
was answered using one long definition
happie seh...
lolls
but afterall the paper WAS Tough

PM paper
was ok to me
can do
n just kept on writing n writing
when i finished the paper
i was like totally exhausted from vomiting everything out
so just left after ensuring that i have answered all questions
was lucky that i tikam on formulas n was correct
coz last minute i forget margin n turnover formulas...
phew...
so the paper was ok...
hehe..
hopefully the next few would be alright
HRM theory based
IFT enough to kill but better if i can UNDERSTAND
PFPLI theory based...
i need a better brain for memorizing!!
EXAMS WILL BE OVER IN 4 days
n afterwards
work already
hopefully my resumes can bring me a temporary job

Current favourite song: xiao jiu wo
By: JJ and ah sa
dedicted to: all lovers out there n dar dar
(jj)我还在寻找一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷替我烦恼为我生气为我闹

(sa)幸福开始有预兆缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了无聊变得有话聊有变化了

(合)小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好我永远爱你到老

(sa)幸福开始有预兆缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了无聊变得有话聊有变化了

(合)小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老
小酒窝长睫毛迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

while reading through blogs
read from baobei's blog tat her fren was annouced brain dead
due to accident i guess
was rather shocked again
why are there so many things happening around us
from my cousin brain cell stopped developing which almost equals brain dead
after 2-3years though making recovery
haiz
however...
was rather depressed once again
n i agree with her that we really must show n let a person know tat u love them
so that there wun be a day for regret
at least when anything happens to u
u know tat the other party knows abt how u feel
haiz...
suddenly got this verge to run over to papa n hug him to tell him i love u
however
i think he'll think tat i'm crazy.
so all i did was "papa u go out must be careful ya"
dun always to clumsy
we will be worried
n his face was showing this rather happy n touched face
somehow i saw in his eyes
a minute of gentleness
papa's eyes was always so fierce n stern
hardly see that flash of gentleness
n i guess he get me
that indirectly i'm telling him i love him...
n jie jie i love u too! (just in case u read tis too)

n suddenly i felt a tinge of regret
coz i haven't told dar directly "i love u"
though he occasionally would tell me that
however sometimes its hard to tell him directly coz everytime i wanted to say i felt like
worms in my tummy, n i just somehow can't blurt any words out
n i had to laugh it off
haiz
suddenly i feel like a coward.

lastly, to my frens
i do love u too
but in another way
a friendship way of coz
though close or hi-bye frens
all mean much to me
though of coz closer frens do have more weight in my heart
especially baobei for occasionally meeting up with me n let me pour my worries.
n always helping my in my shoppping!
i do love you!! muackie!!!!

This week
k i was rather depressed during the week for some reasons
which i shan't reveal to anybody yet
felt bad from keeping it from dar n jie
haiz...
anyway this week
thursday wsa super depressed n i ended school damn early
n had to wait till 5 for appointment
since having 3 hours of free time
i met jie at marina square
n we had our shopping spree
after shopping
i left early for appointment while jie continued shopping there
was rather pissed upon leaving the place
coz of the charles n keith guy
such a terrible attitude
n will be writing a complain letter to charles n keith soon
coz that person is really too much
tink jie was rather angry as well
anyways had my facial n went back to city hall
coz jie called n said there was sales everywhere
n so went over
n my shopping ended up with
3tops, 1dress, shoes n many more
lols
n during our shopping trip there we had our brunch
the restaurant has rather good ambience
so of coz... camwhoring!!!

this week isso busy cum tired
while dar studies for his exam n we didn't meet
i got alot of time to do my stuffs
did my notes for exams
and rushed projects
n finally today ends my sem and my proj life
n soon in 1 and a half more weeks
n i'll be saying goodbye to my poly life
serious i dun have any feeling rite now
coz i'm over-exhausted
of doing projects
dun have the happy feeling that i've finally graduated
though today is officially the last day of school
tiredly, i dragged my feet home
tired tired
but i can't get myself to sleep
coz after 2-3 sleepless nights
i dun even know if i'll jump up from my sleep again
nightmares are haunting me
can anyone get rid of the nightmares for me??
this weekend
supposed to study
but well
it's valentine's day
last year dar sacrificed his study time
n this year my turn

this monday while i was at home realised the moon was exceptionally mesmorizing
it's damn beautiful
so i took a few shos of it
to serve as a memory
n jie told me that it was the brightest n biggest moon in 50 years...
woo~~~
no wonder!!

I just found alot of photos to post for last week.
Some outdated photos
during cny on the bus

and last week went with dar, jie and few friends to chomp chomp for dinner
while me n dar was on the way to ice cube for desserts