papa went overseas this week...
but got project to do....so no time to go out to play...
sadded...
haiz...
monday managed to cook a meal with jie...
heex...
at least i can cook...
but i only help to cut the veg la...if not later the whole kitchen burned down by me...
den newspaper headlines come out: "girl tries to cook n burn kitchen"...
lols...
den got left over soup...
n dar came over to drink!! lols...
n he claimed that he was being forced!
nope...
i never force...
heex...
i not tt evil...

tuesday...
ended school early...
den went over to jomaine's house...
while she n jie studying...
i walked around the whole of compass looking for kalai...
wua...
walked till legs numb lo...
den went back to school meet dar...
den went to orchard...
on the way...
asthma attack...
can't breathe...
on mrt like quite throw face wor...
lols...
den went to eat his fav...
ljs...
lols...
n watched prom night...
scare me like crazy lo...
can hear screams here n there in the cinema...
den like quite amusing oso...
lols...
n went home after that...
dropped by the pasar malam at my house...
n walked back home...
tired tired...

wednesday...
halfway lesson felt weird weird de...
den go toilet...
omg!!
kana mens...
but predicted it la...
was late...
den sure pain de...
den...
doing project halfway...
pain until like crazy...
rushed home to rest...
super pain lo...
can't really walk properly...
den reached home...
anyhow eat small bite den eat medicine den slept....
halfway...
got alot of calls and msg came in...
think i got pick up n replied msg....
but subconsciously...
so didn't really rmb wat i replied...
lols...
should be i sleep walking again...
lols...
den went to pick xian up...
lols...
she's soo cute...
n went to give jie a scare...
lols...
den went home while anna and jie played with xian...
heex...
den dar came over after his work...
n we went to eat downstair...
chatted b4 gg home...
yawns...

these few days...
was a little more relaxed...
monday after school...
went to eat with dar...
and he bought hokkien mee...
despite the fact thathe knows i can't shell prawns..
and he can't eat prawns...
after finishing up the food...
leaving the prawns there...
he shelled them for me...


and then he'll send it into my mouth without me needing to move...
lols...
so sweet...


love to see him shelling prawns for me...
heex...
at least proved that i didn't love the wrong guy...
heex...

tuesday had my faa ica...
i did a careless mistake...
which i think i may only just nice pass this time...
sobs...
wanted to get good grades but...
haiz...

went malaysia on friday with jie...
to collect my contact lens...
went in like really early...
coz we need to be back in sing...
coz jie had lessons at 2...
and for me...
no lessons due to e-learning day!!
yippee!!
went there...
after collecting lens...
walked around and decided to spend our leftovers on food...
hiah hiah...
yumyum food...

my half finished soup, garlic bread and my fish and chips!!
the fish is really so damn fresh...
outside super crispy...
inside super soft...
heex...
and super filling...

jie's sizziling hot baked rice...
nice nice wor...

on the way back to customs...
went past this place...
was still as usual...
like every year...
shocked by the number of motorcycles...
too over le...

den i went home to put down my stuff...
and had a 2hour nap...
before going to amk to meet jie...
ate baked potatoes...
and greedy us...
ate 2 baked potatoes...
me and jie ate the original and vegetarian one...
while jomaine ate both original...
should try more flavours ma...
and i forgot to take pic...
haiz...
sadded...

den walked around at amk hub...
and in an interesting shop saw all the stuff below...

this poster is for someone special...

this is to the one i love...
damn sweet one...
wanted to buy for dar...
but...
sadded...
didn't bring enough money with me...

this is the ABC's of marriage...
makes sense though...
lols...

this is happy birthday to someone special...

this one is for friends...
read le...
damn touched...
haiz...

and guess wat is this..??

answer: lip balm...
can't imagine rite??
open up got lip balm de...
and the flavouring depends on which flavour you buy...
if chocolate tart...
den chocolate flavour...
cute...
but i think not worth the price...
coz over small le...

went home at 9plus...
had dinner and before i sleep received a very sweet msg from dar...
quite chim n can't really understand some parts...
but really felt very sweet...
and finally after 1whole month...
i had a good night's sleep...
and had sweet dreams...
thanks dar!!

haiz...
finally finished faa ica yesterday...
wuah load off my mind...
only left with crm presentation, and ED day...
and i'm heading to my exams...
omg...
so tired man!!
however like after yesterday's faa ica,
i felt as though i put down all my burdens le...
heex...
finally had a good nice sleep since before the holidays...
coz everyday choing projects lo...
haiz...
ke lian...

last week saturday...
went to watch the dark knight..
damn nice show...
i like it...
but dar doesn't like batman...
so he dun really like it i guess...
lols...
but it's nice...
highly recommended...
now i understand was it's rated 5/5...
lols...
nice nice nice...
heex...

den sunday whole day homework, project...
i just freakingly dunno wat to write for CRM software...
so how m i gonna write??
got the features, but how to incorporate it to our company??
terrible...
sat there thinking for an hour...
even everyday on my comp to think...
wuahz....
still dunno how to write lo...
hopefully we can anyhow crap something out ba...
did my stuff until late late night den went to sleep...
see even weekends i dun get a chance to rest...
even at home oso alot of things to do...
think i'm more relaxed outside...
lols...

monday...
came school for project earlier...
den went for lesson...
and guess wat??
lesson cancelled...
came to school for nothing :(
but got do project la..
so at least not a wasted trip...
heex...

tuesday faa ica and entre presentation...
i'm not the one presenting...
so i got to relax after faa ica...
heex...

today only came school for faa tutorial...
ended damn early...
had lunch at mac...
lols...
finally after two weeks...
heex...
nice nice...
den got the IPP talk...
omg!!
i'm going IPP soon...
can't wait...
but hor...
IPP will have lesser time for dar le...
plus lesser time for me to rest...
slog guts out like crazy and minimal pay...
eh no...
according to wat's said by the school...
it's not pay...
it's ALLOWANCE!!
lols...
hopefully i get into a higher ALLOWANCE company...
lols...
tired tired tired...
hope projects get over soon so i can concentrate on studying for exams...
and i still got loads of notes to prepare before revision lectures...
fainted...

xians photos uploaded again...
cutie pie!!


cutie!!
and below...
are my beloved xian shitting...
see she hunch her back...
hmmm no good...

monday...
went out with beloved dar dar for his official birthday celebration...
went orchard again...
but this time watched movie...
ate...
took neos...
heex...
a promise to take together every year...
tml will be our officially know each other for 1year...
this whole yar realised that i changed alot...
and thanks for him that was the one pulling me up at my darkest periods...
we watched hellboy2...
dun really understand the show...
other than fight and he is big and red...
i dun get the meaning...
haiz...
no the bus...
the photo taking session...
but the bus was shaking too much...
so didn't come out good...



tuesday...
had lessons early...
den ended class at 3 plus...
did project till 4 plus and left...
coz wasn't feeling well...
had slight fever at night...

today...
reached school early...
managed to squeeze onto 72...
heex...
saw dar's fren on the bus...
den off to school...
class ended early...
and we did project again...
dar came to fetch me...
n left after doing my part...
watch it's a boy girl thing...
not bad wor...
but dar said it wasn't nice...
haiz...
den home sweet home...

today...
went for dar's birthday bbq...
was a bad idea...
i shouldn't have gone after all...
should let him have fun with his friends....
haiz...
shan't talk abt details anymore...
but we just had a big quarrel...
so big...
n dar went missing after that...
had been running around looking for him...
den was the worst day of my life...
worry overcame my anger...
first time i cried on the streets and almost got knocked down by car...
haiz...

dar wat i'm angry about...
is not that u drink...
is u know drink le will be bad for ur health...
i'm afraid that your body can't take it...
wat if anything happens to you?
wat will happen to me?
wat if ur body anything goes wrong...
and that u broke your promise...
few minutes before u promised me that u wun drink...
no matter wat oso wun drink...
n few minutes later...
u drink...
i'm disappointed...
and that if a small promise u can't keep to it?
den wat other promises will u break??
i've got nothing else to say...
other than disappointment...
still disappointment...
even u going missing...
oso break a promise of yours...
haiz...
haiz...
haiz...

today...
actually going for checkup with dar...
but he didn't wan me to go coz he didn't wan me to see him kana poked by needles...
thanks for saving me of the heartache...
but just hearing it already feel pain for you...
luckily i never go la...
coz i scared of needles...

went school for entrepreneurship...
i'm a good girl know...
i didn't pon ok...
lols...
den before investments...
helped people to tap card...
hear a super demoralising line from some people...
k la...
suspect i never scan for u all just say la...
i'm not tha black hearted ok??
next time dun call me tap for u la...
yi xin bing so zhong...
can go be director la...
where got so drama stuff in real life one...
this whole week...
only get pissed and more pissed...
can't u all act like a grown up??
haiz...
sorry...
just wanted to vent it out...
dun wan to say names...
but ok...
everything is over...
during investments tutorial...
was fun...
coz we were crapping all away...
and after school...
had small lunch...
den off for projects...
realised still got some work not done...
a bit panicking already...
haiz...
today must finish all my tutorials...
so that can fang xin go celebratedar's birthday with him...
sunday rush to study gso ica...
wuah...
i feel so busy...
so wun go think of irritating stuff...

pic uploading session...

the yummy yummy seafood beehoon...
my fav food that pa cooks...
yumyum...

and of coz next will be my xian...
lols...
she looks exceptionally cute in this photo...
heex...



so happie...
today i can see her le...
den can help me forget those unhappy stuff...

haiz...
i'm so so so tired...
everyday wake up early...
yawns...
everyday projects...
this week is very busy...
until i dun even have the energy to chat on phone...
sorry dar...
didn't call and chat with u...
even forget to msg u good night msg...
feel so bad about it...

tuesday...
papa was home late...
so he cooked my favourite seafood beehoon..
lols...
shall upload the pic of it soon...

everyday come school all very tired...
wednesday...
lesson at 9am...
went to take bus at 8 le...
still no bus come...
i dun wan take bus change to 72 coz always can't get up...
den wait till 8.50...
know that sure late le...
so decidednot to go...
but coz of some reasons...
managed to get to school at 9.25am like tt...
met angie at shopping arcade...
lols...
alot of us are late...
so decided to go in class lo...
heex...
when get to class...
got my tep cert...
and the tep gift...
super heavy when i put it into my bag...
den happily...
saw my online shopping top at my space there...
lols...
grace passed me le...
lols...
so happy...
got new shirt to wear le...
find that my top so less...
got bottom dun have top...
so now i got more tops coming....
lols...
still got 2 more tops and i cardigan...
den not yet pay de got 2 cardigan, 2 tops and 1 shorts i think...
i oso waiting for my bag...
wuah...
losing control for online shopping...
coz choose and choose...
den dun bleed first...
paying le den feel the pain...
lols...
i stopping le...
cutting down really alot...
happily...
tahan the weight of my bag...
lols...
on my way home...
i slept on the bus!!!
miracle...
hardly ever sleep on the bus...
and the most ps thing is i hit my head...
on the window...
super ps la!!!
lols...
somemore alot of people on the bus...
reached home watched old vcds...
den jie came home...
was like super sian of being at home alone le...
i like so contradicting la...
like to be at home alone dun have the feeling of being watched...
den nobody at home oso very sian....

thursday...
meet my groupmates for project...
though no class...
haiz...
went over to dar's house to pick up lappy...
but he not in...
so he passed his mum to pass me...
den his mum oso went out...
luckily his bro at home...
if not sure die..
i dun need to project today le...
haiz...
tot i will be late...
but luckily i reached on time...
heex...
ate breakfast and went ibrc do project...
like didn't really do much...
but like finished alot le lehz...
lols...
i'm weird...
and grace is kind of high these few days...
keep laughing...
at least meeting for projects are better than classes...
got my groupmates to cheer me up...
laughed alot today...
thanks groupmates for entertainment...!
n thanks dar for lappy...
tired...
tired tired...
i wan sleep really early today...
but need to prepare for lecture tml...
haiz...
sianz....
and tml after lesson still need do tutorials...
coz saturday is dar's birthday celebration bbq..
sunday need to study gso ica...
and monday after ica need to go celebrate dar's birthday with him...
tired week ahead...
but happy for dar...
coz he is finally 21...
lols...

this week is so hectic...
so packed up with projects...
damn tiring...

friday...
after school...
went to suntec...
had lunch with dar...
and met his ex-teacher...
den off to home...
tiring day...
had good chat with dar...

saturday...
went out with dar for movie...
met at his house...
den off to usual amk for hancock movie...
nice movie...
heex...
den off to eat my lunch...
only bought finger food and chatted and eat as we walked...
den home sweet home thereafter...
felt very sweet inside...
coz dar told me more things abt himself...
but mood was very sad for some things that happened to dar...
haiz...
my ke lian de dar dar...
which this made me love him much much more...

next...
photo blogging session...
lots of photos to update since holidays...

see andy keep taking photos of people...
somemore secretly take de...

yunting is acting how to teach like miss gladys...

and how bored are we during the lesson...



the long long break...
nothing better to do...

my poor leg...
i hurt myself before the holidays...
and this is wat papa put on my leg...
my leg is disfigured!!

at fish and co with kel and aishah...
and us sharing the extremely huge sharkie drink...

the cj7 dar dar bought for me...

i did my own manicure...
lols...
pic come out better than the actual one...
lols...

me on my way home after a long day...
tired...

girl girl sleep until she fall off the bed...
and she is still sleeping soundly...
cute rite...
lols...
a small piggy...

my uncle playing with my xian xian lao gong...

i jump!
jump jump jump!!

heh!!! jump!!

haiz... tired of jumping ready...

ehz... i spotted someone trying to take my photo...

k la...
pose for u to take me beautifully...
must cute cute photo come out one hor!!
lols...

currently rushing for projects...
last weekend was out with dar on sat...
was having this super bad mood of his attitude for the past 1week...
dunno why like that though...
think really misunderstanding ba...
cried in front of him in the cinema before the show...
den managed to cool down to concntrate to the movie...
watched get smart...
nice and funny movie...
but during movie...
realised something is wrong with dar...
and realised he was crying...
diaoz...
think i hurt him deeply from the words i said...
sorry dar...
but i only wanted to tell u how i felt...
den went home...
my beloved xian xian lao gong was already at home waiting for me...
heex...
feel so much warmth...
for my whole life...
i hated going home...
i hated the feeling of nowhere to go but to go home...
but whenever xian is at home waiting for me...
i feel the urge to rush home asap...
so...
xian is my motivation to go home...
the root of my happiness...
can't imagine one day if she leaves me...
sadded...

reached home...
went to buy dinner while bringing xian for a walk...
jie invited some friends home...
to teach them a maths...
luckily last minute i've got work to do...
if not i'll be the last minute free tutor of the day...
phew...
but one of her friends still bring friends along...
i dun like them...
bad girls...
and somemore call us buy food for them all dun wan to eat...
dun even know got pay a not...
wth...
if give this kind of attitude den dun go others' house la...
think u all queens mehx...
take everything for granted...
we're not your maids okay!!

sunday stayed at home to do homework plus projects...
so tired and sick of projects...
and xian wasn't there to accompany me through all this...
sadded...

monday...
meet my group mates at 9am though our lesson is at 12...
did project...
went to have lunch together...
this time meeting in school for projects wasn't that terrible as the past...
coz my group mates were entertaining...
especially mr.poon and andy+jiaen...
everything they say ah...
damn funny de...
lols...
den went for my crm ica...
i think i screwed it up...
yes i did...
coz i was still half sleeping half awake condition while taking it...
so can't handle the going crazy teacher...
but she's yelling at the top of her voice i guess...
so wat i did was practically holding the phone far away from my ears...
and afterall...
i put the phone down but talked into the voice thingy...
and i can still hear her ranting away...
n guess wat...
she say my voice over gentle...
fainted...
where got gentle lo...
gross...
den went for gso lecture...
the new lecturer was...
TERRIBLE...
almost sleep during her lesson...
and she was practically reading out everything from her book...
so not much notes to write...
which makes me so sleepy...
den went to take photos for sample of entre product...
my group maked me the model...
sian diaoz...
dun like la...
but i little sacrifice for the project is needed...
think the photos came out super ugly...
coz i have a lousy body shape...
changed at the staircase though...
felt so shy changing at so open area...
afterwards home sweet home...

tuesday...
school at 10am...
forced myself out of bed...
was so tired and feel like calling guojie to help me scan my card...
but...
faa lecture cannot miss!!!
so forced myself to wake up and make my way slowly to school...
still 70% sleeping, 10% awake, 20% in my dreamland...
den still got presentation...
skipped crm lecture to prepare for presentation later...
afterall at presentation...
i was like a train rushing through everything i need to say...
fainted...
talked until my mouth so dry...
after presentation...
den i realised that my pants the zip spoil...
but luckily my shirt long enough to cover...
lols...
heng ar...
den went to have some food with dar...
and back home...
once i reached home papa went out...
leaving me at home all alone...
was so afraid for nightfall...
that i slept all the way till jie comes home to on the lights...
finally i feel secure...
i'm such a insecure person...
lack security...
haiz...
slept early that night for the early lessons next day...

today...
didn't wan to come school one...
but...
haiz no choice ar...
new teacher for gso lesson...
waited for bus soo long...
72 is so full...
so took 70 that came...
got traffic jam...
haiz...
reached school late...
but not as late that i didn't hear teacher talking...
though it was useless...
just so icebreaker...
lols...
den lessons and breakfast...
and lessons again...
faa lesson made me wan to sleep even much much more...
ended just on time...
tot will overrun...
haiz...
den do project time...
didn't have lunch...
so halfway ran down to cheers for some biscuits...
met dar there...
and back to project...
when jie called saying my xian lao gong is waiting for me at home...
now got motivation to go home early again!!!
heex...