wuah...
after a week of training i feel that i become another person...
this week is training at UOB lo...
get to know so many more people...
altoghter 10 of us...
we helped each other...
laughed at each other...
did everything at UOB together...
from strangers to friends...
now...
a helping hand...
it's like...
if anything that i feel uncertain of...
they'll be there reaching out a helping hand for me...
they're a damn nice lot of people...
though at UOB is tough...
and even training details cannot be said online...
everything is secrecy...
but really didn't regret coming in...
thoguh tests everyday...
theory...
practical...
but really bonded us together...
and i'm learning much more things than in school...
now i know we must really cherish the time at sch...
coz the real working world outside...
is much more scarier and tough to handle...
i'm now facing the scariest part of humans...
dun even think i can tahan over this stopover...
but it's like when i feel that i wan to give up...
aishah told me to jia you through sms...
really so thankful to her...
coz juz everyday trying to get out of bed is using up all my energy...
going to work is a real torture...
and training is worst than torture...
luckily we get a bunch of nice trainers...
think we're instead the ones torturing us ba...
hahas...
something happened on thursday...
that really make me breakdown lo...
it's like accusing me of doing something i didn't do...
that really hurts...
it's like very hurting lo...
i was feeling so down...
so sick...
and still need to memorise my stuff...
and finally cannot tahan and rest...
so i put my phone at the room lo...
and when i go and check...
that single message...
that single one...
is enough to totally crash me so hard...
just that single msg...
i feel so many different feeling inside...
angry...
sad...
dissappointed...
you tried so hard to gain my trust...
and that's how easily to ruined it...
you said you will trust me in everything i did...
but that's your so called trust...
it's like...
now then i fully understand...
that wat you actually think of me...???
and never did i imagined that at the point of time...
when i most need help...
most need encouragement...
and you were the one the ended up hurting me the most...
the one that really pushed me all the way down...
is like i not blaming you for all these lo...
just that from this incident tells us alot of things...
but i was too tired to even care of my feelings...
just work and work is enough for me to bear...
my schedule:
6.30am wake up to go to work...
6pm end of work...
7pm reach home...
7pm clear all my stuff and taking out notes...
8pm studying...
9pm watch show...
10pm studying...
12am dinner
1am sleep...
see how terrible my schedule is...
so do you think it's enough for me to bear??
i dun even have time for my family...
i feel so guilty to be angry at the point of time...
coz your mom's...
but after friday...
that night...
after work...
jie asked me wat's wrong...
the point of time when i told her...
can you understand how much i feel like crying??
so the trust you had in me is so much lesser than wat you think...
though i accepted you apologies...
but the tears that washed away the trust...
is all gone...
leaving behind dissappointment...
but my life isn't that sad during training...
was quite funny at times...
but i kana scolding...
actually not say scolding la...
just very harsh words from my trainer...
but met even more harsh people on the phone...
friday was the first day where we started picking up calls...
and we were all so nervous...
didn't even dare to pick up the calls...
and a senior was like calling us the test if the mic is working...
and then after me she test jonathan's mic...
and he was opposite me...
den his senior press the pick up call button for him...
and he tot it was the customer...
so immediately his face turned serious...
den he said :"Good afternoon. UOb. This is jonathan speaking. How may i help you"
den is like all of us laughed out loud la...
only testing only lo...
damn paiseh lo...
hahas...
laughed at him for like almost 15min...
hahas...
really damn funny lo...
everytime for work is like he making me laugh la...
den it's like...
during the test all of us play cheat la...
but the first test...
sat with jonathan for the paper...
den both of us were chatting happily away...
tat's why the second test all of us play cheat...
den yesterday then we know the head of call centre was behind us when we were taking the test lo...
faints...
hahas...
so it's like think he know we play cheat lo...
but dunno the results of our test...
but the practical(role play)...
was enough for me to die...
me facing the 10 of us and 2trainers...
so my voice volume become so soft...
den mind totally blank...
den totally dunno how to reply to all the questions...
ended up saying i'll put you on hold while i check for you...
so it's like put on hold so many times...
so nervous until like...
trainer called me repeat for 5times lo...
so it's like damn embarassing lo...
but luckily it's in the training room...
not really taking up customers calls...
if not i sure die one...
but never mind la...
coz personal selling the uob call centre will have to help us!!
heh heh...
that's our real motive lo...
hahas...
but really la...
learnt so many stuff...
and now have to face the real working world...
with backstabbers...
betrayers...
so this little small feeling of mine now...
is actually wat i may face in tis stopover...
i'll gradually get used to it...
at least it's better than being protected in the safe walls of sch...
i can face the real world faster...
and get used to it faster than others...
and thanks augu for making the effort to call me...
hahas...
you really encouraged me alot...
hope you do well for your tournaments ya...
and it's really nice chatting with you...
and lastly...
i miss my classmates!!!!
+hope that your mom's fine+
+and hope that i can recover+
+this trust is gone+
+dissappointment left+
the ten of us...
my beloved tep mates...
row 1 : Cheryl, Clara, HuiYi
row 2: trainer Cindy, trainer Joey, Stephanie and Esther
row 3: timothy, dominique, seok mun, me and jonathan
to bored sia...
in the trainig room...
finish me test first...