heex...
these few days learning loads of stuff...
friday actually wanted to go cut hair and go out de...
but too broke le...
so decided to cut hair on saturday instead...
den stay at home to watch vcds...
haha...
finally got time to touch my baobei vcds le....

den saturday go for mentoring the last time...
next time dunno when le...
coz they got exams...
den i teach a girl...
coz my that mentee never come...
luckily teach this one super smart...
though i teach her the method the teacher haven't teach...
but once i teach her den she understand le...
so smart...
but got some she still dunno how to do...
den teach her lo...
den got this question last time tang na oso keep giving mi do de...
but that question i do dunno how many times oso dunno how to do de...
so bo bian...
call jie to teach us...
but luckily my os never come out that kind of question la...
den the mentee that iteach and jie teaching de so nice...
suddenly dun wan mentoring to stop...
this year's batch people much nicer...
and they took my msn and friendster...
some even took my phone number...
and the mentee jie teach say i look like ah lian...
i was like omg...
faintz...
den keep asking me if got bf...
den of coz i say dun haf...
still dun believe...
and jie look like guai kia mehx??
hahas...

but that time the scary mentee still walking around me and jie...
like sort of pestering us...
it's like omg...
totally scared by her...
so the whole time like dun dare to talk to her and stuff like that...
after mentoring got mentors meeting...
SK good la...
can dun come le...
next year still need to go...
actually is after the june holidays...
but june holiday got mentoring outing....
can't wait for it...
coz gonna be fun...
but not confirmed...
and is at pasir ris...
so gonna become darker again...
hate the sun...
i like the moon more...

den after mentoring go with jie sell my old phone...
too bad spoil le can sell for $40...
at least got more money to spend...
den go hougang mall to mum mum...
met janilyn...
so long never see her le...
primary school good frens sia...
den she in nyp oso...
got so many pl peeps come in...
haiz...
hope that scary butch never come in ba..
den go my house downstairs cut hair...
call her anyhow cut just want long hair...
not bad la...
come out okiez lo...
but i like it...
but a bit too short le...
coz over layered...
$16 dollars cut at shisheido hairsaloon not bad sia...
but the money of coz paid by lao pa...
the person call jie to soft rebond...
make until i wan lo...
coz i ben lai jiu yao rebond de...
but rebond le 2 days cannot wash hair...
make until jie dun dare...
hahas...
super funny sia...
coz we used to washhair everyday de...
sometimes even more than once a day la...
so jie cannot stand it de...

today stay at home learn jap...
wuah...
this time learn much more than i used to in a day...
almost faint...
haiz...
than my head gonna burst liaoz...
but bo bian...
coz school going to open liaoz..
so must learn faster...

tml got lotsa things to do...
argh...
though school starts at 3pm but need to go out at 11am le...
coz meeting somebody to collect my clothes...
bought some clothes online...
hope come out okiez ba...
so meeting the person at orchard...
coz oso cannot wear until too lorkor...
den meeting jie to mum mum lunch...
heex...
gonna eat in school...
but cannot eat fried food...
can only eat soupy stuff...
hard to resist sia...
but must tahan...
den meeting zhen and may at school...
talking it out ba...
coz think really lotsa misunderstanding...
somethings write on blog not commenting abt each other de lo...
but misunderstood...
so better talk ba...
hope got happy ending...
den go school...
EFMA...
sucks la...
accounting again sia...
dun wan...
haiz...
hope can end early...

heex...
today wake up super pain de headache...
yesterday went for the class bbq...
was quite fun sia...
but at the starting it rained heavily...
so the guys go move the big umbrella over to cover the bbq pit...
den we ate the beehoon and salad first lo...
and the salad is so addictive...
ate non-stop...
the girls finished almost half the big bowl of salad...
den finished raining liaoz...
den i help to bbq...
actually started with taking cooked food...
den become brushing on butter and honey...
the food came out not bad sia...
but ash wanted to bbq the satay...
so the girls left for him to bbq...
den we go eat lo...
den eat until super full...
den me, suyu, kelynn, jiaen, aishah go toilet...
den play with water at the baby pool...
and that wengkin tried to push me in...
luckily never...
hahas...
den after that drink the alcohol...
i really cannot drink sia...
den after that feel like puking and a bit giddy...
suyu also felt so...
i too long never drink le sia...
cannot take it...
den left for home...
but on the way home got puke abit...
luckily late le...
so nobody around...
hahas...
heng sia...
den go home abit not feeling well...
den papa cook dinner for me...
omg...
super full sia...
den made to eat...
slept at think 2 plus 3??

today wake up head super pain...
woke up at around 1 plus...
heex...

uploading of photos...
the following few taken on the bus when on the way to compass point from sch...


this one taken in the lift... at jo's house...
bought some items from her...

this one taken during the bbq... edited it...

in school now...
for club crawl...
totally tire me out man...
made few more frenz...
den today is like totally giving out flyers day...
den go check the people tt signed up for mentoring...
den saw zhiwei's name...
somemore is like his own hp no oso write wrong...
so change it for him lo...
den today keep running away...
coz really tired sia...
den kana have to hold the sandwich board for quite some time....
so diu lian...
really lo...
haiz..
luckily nobody i know saw me with it...
if not wo bu yao huo le....
just very tired...
coz trying to change myself at the same time...
i must change...
cannot always stay at the same place...
heex...
took lots of photos tat day...
but shall upload another day when my comp can go internet ba...

Shall upload the photos now...

Taken with jiaen at the bus stop when she came my house...

BBQ Photos below

Me and Kalai(mrs bala)...

us bbq-ing... and the sexy girl is jo's cousin...

halfway bbq-ing...

us eating...

the other table...

the food... argh... making mi hungry...

us bbq-ing marshmallows...
pls dun laugh at this photo...
coz peeps see-ing me first time wearing specs...

The whole group of people...
but too dark...
can't really see...
shall edit this photo soon...
But the atmosphere is quite nice there...

heex...
timetable out le...
actually wanna msg some people de...
jie dun allow me to...
haiz...
but the timetable okiez la...
monday:3pm-6pm...
others not quite sure...
but no night lessons...
den latest day is monday lo...
others all early morning lessons...
friday no lessons...
yay!!
can stay at home sleep le...

last night thought of alot of things...
jie taught me to see things from aother view...
i know last time i was too...
how to say...
stupid ba...
heex...
wo xiang tong le!!

haiz...
yesterday learnt alot of lessons...
mux thank yunting for teaching me so many stuff...
learnt tt as a human he/she mux be selfish...
even though people say you selfish oso cannot care...
coz they're not you...
so they won't know how you feel...

yap...
i'm feeling very helpless and lost right now...
i don't know wat to do...
now i'm making the first step...
if i don't...
the prob will still be there...
i'm so lack of courage...
it's the first time i felt so la..
den is like everytime think of the matter...
i feel so lack of energy...
as though dun even have the energy to breathe...
i mux pick up my courage...
since i've got the courage to even go against my relatives...
why don't i have the courage to face my own matters...?
i can do it...

i believe that if i had put in more effort...
many things might not have turned to this way...
but now effort is not enuff...
courage and even determination is needed...
i don't know if i have the dtermination and courage to face it...
but i must...!

haiz...
i'm really spending more and more money on online shopping...
faintz...
i want to spend money...
but keep spending on online shopping...
my savings for my iPod totally gone le...
i'm addicted!!!
who can save me man!!
qiqi tried to stop me and jie...
but cannot...
just bought another few items as well...
den tt day go out the whole day...
den the receipt can change 1 umbrella...
den jie go take...
it's hot red la...
den i was like pls dun give me take that...

den we went amk after bishan...
den bought the grocery that is needed at home...
den i was like scarly later rain...
den once we walk out of the shopping centre got heavy rain...
den luckily got umbrella...
but not enough to cover us...
coz it's super small...
den got partially wet...

den go home put stuff...
den go over to hougang point to buy some other stuff...
coz amk forget to buy some...
den on the way over heavy rain again...
den mi and jie totally wet...
and i was screaming away in the rain...
coz i very cold...
luckily jie insisted to bring the umbrella...
or not we totally become luo tang ji...
bought the items le den we walk out of hougang point...
no rain le...

den go home we tried to make toast...
den it was success...
hahas...
oso very nice oso...
den make until i very full...
heex...
den today stay at home...
whole day online shopping again...
crazy mi...
totally addicted...

yeps...
fianlly can some and blog le...
the bbq was fun...
super fun...
went to jomaine's house at 12.30pm...
den we started eating lunch...
den played many games...
gambled abit...
but all 5cents...
haha...
lost all my 5cents coins!!
and oso lost a few 10cent coins...
but never mind la...
the coins all digged from lao pa's drawer...
haha...
so not my money either...
den played with jomaine's fish...

yep...
the bbq got anna, anna's friend, mi, jie, jomaine, weifang, lingling, kalai, bahnu, jo's papa, mama, and shireen...
around ten plus people...
though less but fun lorz...
at least better than many people den not much talking and stuff...
jo's parents are really nice people...
but in the afternoon only mi jie jo bahnu kalai and shireen...
den we go play fish after gambling...
den i feed the fish with my hands...
jo's fish super cute la...
i put my hand down they come and suck...
den the way they sock the food super cute...
den the feeling oso super cute...
heex...
den i touch the fish...
super smooth la...
wish got that kinda smooth skin...
and very soft too...
heex...
den jie and the rest that do not dare to touch the fish copy the 18arhats statue...
those statue were put at the fish pond...
den shireen play piano for us to listen...
but she play my lullaby...
den make until i wanna sleep...
den we keep on playing games...
oh ya...
den play halfway we decided to stop...
den go prepare the food...
put properly into trays and stuff like that...
and mi and jo go downstairs...
tranfer money again...
for my online shopping...
shalln't go out shop anymore...
online shopping is beta...
den meet weifang(jo cousin)...
she super chio...
but i dun dare to take photo with her...
she too chio le...
den bought bubble tea...
den go back for bbq...
den all of us dunno how to start fire...
den wei fang help us to start fire...
den ended up she bbq all the food...
den her whole body hot until go red...
so ke lian...

actually jo's papa oso help us to cook the food...
den all of us help...
not like some others just sit there act until like they are the owner like that...
waiting for people to serve...
don't you feel bad??
other people oso got pay wat...
wat makes you think that people should serve you...??

den we sit around they table and chit chat...
jo's papa talk about his life story...
soo alike papa de...
heex...
can understand their feelings of starting out with nothing...
though i've never experienced but i can feel their helplessness and wanting to succeed feelings...
den eat until damn full...
den jo's papa became our photographer for the day...
hahas...
he took alot of photos...
shall wait for him to e-mail us the photos...
only uploaded those in my phone...

mi and bahnu...

mi and kalai...

yaps...
after the bbq kalai's bf sent us home...
her bf look so diff from his bro...
they look totally opposite...
one is huai huai nan...
the other is kuai kuai nan...
but they super nice la...
guess so...
heex...

yaps...
in the middle of bbq-ing when i was eatingsatay...
some stupid idiot bitch pushed me...
make until my lip...
super pain...
luckily never bleed...
or not i would have punched her man...
den i go help weifang bbq...
den she super hot until she started to pull up her spagetti stripe..
den go this cleaner come clear rubbish keep looking...
den she very funny...
she pick up the tongs and stare at the person...
saying,"look again i make you blind"...
den the person left...
haha...
super funny larz...

den i rested at home for two days le...
coz got muscle aches...
coz keep running around the palce serving food and stuff like that...
heex...
until now still got ache la...
but feeling better...
got pimples outbreak...
shall stay at home until the pimples go away...
pray that it leave soon!!

oh ya...
and hope that grace recover from her flu le ba...