Friday, February 09, 2007 haiz...
tired day again...
come so early and mel was late...
pon lesson for her can...
then she come late...
so bu gei mian zi...
and who the stupid hell is that passerby...
wat the hell la...
it's my blog...
i get the right to say anything i wan without anybody commenting la...
if you are my friend...
since you dun even have the guts to say who you are...
that makes you no right or wat so ever to say anything...
if i do not even know who are you...
den that makes you even more no right to comment...
you dun even know wat situation i'm facing...
so who are you man??
that makes you a nothing...
coz you dun even know me...
so who gave you the right to comment me???
wat the hell...
driving mi crazy la...
exams coming le...
should be not gonna blog soon...
tired day again...
come so early and mel was late...
pon lesson for her can...
then she come late...
so bu gei mian zi...
and who the stupid hell is that passerby...
wat the hell la...
it's my blog...
i get the right to say anything i wan without anybody commenting la...
if you are my friend...
since you dun even have the guts to say who you are...
that makes you no right or wat so ever to say anything...
if i do not even know who are you...
den that makes you even more no right to comment...
you dun even know wat situation i'm facing...
so who are you man??
that makes you a nothing...
coz you dun even know me...
so who gave you the right to comment me???
wat the hell...
driving mi crazy la...
exams coming le...
should be not gonna blog soon...
written at 2:36 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007 haiz...
today whole day like walking around like xian ren...
coz wait for jie...
den cannot stand it...
so run to free access lab to use comp...
now watch until hua yang ep 7 le...
damn happy...
wanna keep on watching...
but it buffer so damn the long la...
den it's like wait so long jus to watch one ep....
actually was supposed to meet hui hui today...
but i forget tt today lesson until 10am only...
so tell her dun meet...
den it's like dunno will stay in school until so late...
dissapoint her again...
always i say meet...
den last minute again cannot...
dun worry i won't le...
coz after exams i totally free le...
haiz..
now too late to say wanna meet her le...
coz i today oso forget to bring money...
haiz...
jie oso forget to give me money for this week...
so i only got pathetic $3...
ended up spending everything at the cafe...
heex XD...
damn happy... :P...
my hua yaqng...
now i wanna keep on watching le... XD...
wuah hahahahaha
today whole day like walking around like xian ren...
coz wait for jie...
den cannot stand it...
so run to free access lab to use comp...
now watch until hua yang ep 7 le...
damn happy...
wanna keep on watching...
but it buffer so damn the long la...
den it's like wait so long jus to watch one ep....
actually was supposed to meet hui hui today...
but i forget tt today lesson until 10am only...
so tell her dun meet...
den it's like dunno will stay in school until so late...
dissapoint her again...
always i say meet...
den last minute again cannot...
dun worry i won't le...
coz after exams i totally free le...
haiz..
now too late to say wanna meet her le...
coz i today oso forget to bring money...
haiz...
jie oso forget to give me money for this week...
so i only got pathetic $3...
ended up spending everything at the cafe...
heex XD...
damn happy... :P...
my hua yaqng...
now i wanna keep on watching le... XD...
wuah hahahahaha
written at 3:15 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007 haiz...
lotsa problems coming up...
sick of those friendship problems...
the same thing happening and happening again...
sick of saying the same thing over and over again...
sooo very super duper tired...
tired of so many stufff.....
projects..
haiz..
problems occurred...
im sorry for being sick...
sorry for computer spoilt...
sorry for not doing enough work...
sorry for everything..
no matter wat i say will turn out like excuses...
no matter how i couldn't turn back the time...
i'm just super duper sick and tired...
at the edge of breaking down anytime...
friendship problems...
every single new class i get in always have the same stupid fucking problem...
im just really sooo damn the tired...
such problems are just driving me crazy...
since secondary school...
friendship problems never stop to cease...
why izzit so...
can't there be just some innocent friendships??
at some times tot that things weren't as serious as i tot...
den slowly and graudually things turned out like the way how it turned out in sec sch...
i'm jus totally sick of those childish friendship problems...
jus because of my diff family background...
so i'm more mature in thinking compared to others...
so i'm always the first to realise probs...
and then keep it to myself....
den cry becoz of frens....
den when prob gets very serious...
all i can do is jus wait and see for the friendship to totally become hatred...
and then cry again...
pain all incurred on me...
and then new friends...
den prob occur again...
again becoz of family background...
so thinking diff...
so cannot get along...
izzit my problem..
i sometimes think...
but i'm no diff from the others...
just that i can't come out as often as i wish...
and so distance apart from clique...
and this is happening again...
why...
haiz...
think im the only one in the clique thinking like tt...
coz they're just enjoying themselves with each other...
my jie say three in a clique sure someone feel out de...
really so...
i'm out...
haiz...
+sadness cannot be replaced+
+tears cannot flow back+
+sadness incurred+
+can never be taken back+
they always go out together...
take photos...
seeing them..
my feelings is like...
dunno how to say lo...
like from tq's blog...
feel like just sleeping and never wake up....
but i can't...
i still got lots of responsibilities that i need to hold on to...
if i let go...
my family will..
expectations pressing down on me...
responsibilities...
problems...
studies...
these are all intangible stuff...
stuff that are killing me...
since young...
none of these have left me...
when can i finally freely live without all these...
i live on with the life that i truly wanted....
guess probably foreva that day will not come...
lotsa problems coming up...
sick of those friendship problems...
the same thing happening and happening again...
sick of saying the same thing over and over again...
sooo very super duper tired...
tired of so many stufff.....
projects..
haiz..
problems occurred...
im sorry for being sick...
sorry for computer spoilt...
sorry for not doing enough work...
sorry for everything..
no matter wat i say will turn out like excuses...
no matter how i couldn't turn back the time...
i'm just super duper sick and tired...
at the edge of breaking down anytime...
friendship problems...
every single new class i get in always have the same stupid fucking problem...
im just really sooo damn the tired...
such problems are just driving me crazy...
since secondary school...
friendship problems never stop to cease...
why izzit so...
can't there be just some innocent friendships??
at some times tot that things weren't as serious as i tot...
den slowly and graudually things turned out like the way how it turned out in sec sch...
i'm jus totally sick of those childish friendship problems...
jus because of my diff family background...
so i'm more mature in thinking compared to others...
so i'm always the first to realise probs...
and then keep it to myself....
den cry becoz of frens....
den when prob gets very serious...
all i can do is jus wait and see for the friendship to totally become hatred...
and then cry again...
pain all incurred on me...
and then new friends...
den prob occur again...
again becoz of family background...
so thinking diff...
so cannot get along...
izzit my problem..
i sometimes think...
but i'm no diff from the others...
just that i can't come out as often as i wish...
and so distance apart from clique...
and this is happening again...
why...
haiz...
think im the only one in the clique thinking like tt...
coz they're just enjoying themselves with each other...
my jie say three in a clique sure someone feel out de...
really so...
i'm out...
haiz...
+sadness cannot be replaced+
+tears cannot flow back+
+sadness incurred+
+can never be taken back+
they always go out together...
take photos...
seeing them..
my feelings is like...
dunno how to say lo...
like from tq's blog...
feel like just sleeping and never wake up....
but i can't...
i still got lots of responsibilities that i need to hold on to...
if i let go...
my family will..
expectations pressing down on me...
responsibilities...
problems...
studies...
these are all intangible stuff...
stuff that are killing me...
since young...
none of these have left me...
when can i finally freely live without all these...
i live on with the life that i truly wanted....
guess probably foreva that day will not come...
written at 4:28 PM
